Having at it

So I've noticed that no one has left feed back and that could be for a number of reasons. Mainly I like to think that its because no one's read my blog. And thats cool becuase honestly I'm kind of scared of what someone would say if they read my blog. So that being said I'm going to complain. In all five years of marriage I've never, not once gone crazy and took myself on a shopping spree. There have been points where we just didnt have the money to do it so I never did and didnt complain. Then there were times when we did have the money but I always felt like if I had then I'd be taking away from my kids, who have always had pretty much everything they've ever needed and then some. So my shopping always turned out to be from clearance racks and never more than two items at a time, and if I had bought something with out telling my husband I was going to, I'd come home and hide it and try to feel him out. We're in a time where we dont have the money but I am just dying to buy something, and not just one thing but a lot. I had a baby two months ago and I'm still wearing maternity pants praying no one will notice. I know people have. It kills because all I can do is wait till maybe late October, early November before I will get that chance. I have a new job but by the time I get my first pay check and then take care of things that HAVE to be taken care of, it will be late October or early November when I can throw my name into the hat. UH